Sep/ 2017, Phuket, Thailand.
Life doesn’t come with a manual, it wouldn’t be fun if it did.
The number 33 is the Master number, a number for change, progress, clarity, it’s the reach to the Holy Mountain. From this point onwards life can pass unobserved or completely aware. You have to go down to deepest darkness and hell to fight for your life.
You realize you are your worst demons and they are nothing more than that part that you’ve been avoiding to accept. You can make your own life miserable or the best, but you won’t know until you go through the valley of death and the silence and sorrows of a desert. Where you’ll be tempted many times and will be offered all the wealth of the world and a life blinded by illusion.
You are your worst enemy, and your mind your most precious gift, the vehicle to take you to heaven and create marvelous wonders, or the deepest black hole capable of destroying and disintegrating life. But from chaos comes order, from the darkness you see the light.
Don’t be ashamed to recognize the worst in you, don’t be afraid to show it. Don’t fight it, embrace it, transmute it, you are The Alchemist. The excrement and rotten matter, provide nutrients to the soil and with the light from the Sun plants are able to sustain life, create oxygen, food and bring colors and life to Earth. Transform yourself into a Being of light, use the bad and the worst in you to make life and bring life to everyone who surrounds you.
As you walk towards the Holy Mountain, you will see the worst parts of you, your demons: gluttony, lust, greed, pride, despair, wrath, & envy. Did I just describe myself and my past attitude and behavior? I have, and this is the worst of me. All capital sins have lived within me these past years, my Master has made me face them many times.
That’s why you feel that the same thing keeps happening many times because you were not aware enough to recognize that you are the problem and you are the change. Now I’m on my own and I have to go back to the world, I found and saw myself. From stupidity and ignorance, emerges wisdom.
Cheers to life, to love and all the good things within you. A friend brought a quote to me, and I used to make fun of it, “Nothing changes if nothing changes”, and as repetitive as it might sound, I finally found its true meaning, “If nothing changes, nothing changes. If you keep doing what you’re doing, you’re going to keep getting what you’re getting. You want change, make some.”
This is for me, this is for you, this is for all.
With Love and Joy,